CatsRants
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I ask myself this question a lot about my YouTube channel, I wonder why I make videos and if the investment of my time, energy and emotions worth what I get out of it. I do enjoy making videos and for some people that is enough but can you honestly say you only make them for your own entertainment? If you post videos on you tube then you want people to watch them it’s as plain as that.
There are times when I wonder if my channel will ever become popular, I wonder if I have the time and ability to even make it reach that far. I am no were near as bad as I was but I am also far from where I need to be. My channel has grown faster in the past few months then it has in the past few years but I still feel like it’s a slow growth.
Maybe I am just being hard on myself, maybe it’s just a bad day but I wonder that if I kept doing this for another few years what would happen? Would my channel still be small? Will I ever be truly good at it?
If you asked me why I started making videos the honest answer is I wanted fans. I wanted to have a group of people who thought I was awesome and could not wait for the next video. I wanted to maybe even do conventions as a guest and have people line up to meet me. I know it’s vane but it’s something I want but I don’t think I will ever have.
I am not closing my channel but I am wondering if all this work is paying off in any way.
Yeah I agree YouTube is really tough sometimes, and I do go through stages of thinking what is the point? I have 600 subscribers and struggle to hit 200 views per video, however, I am so grateful to the people who do watch and support my channel! They keep me going!
