I think it's you trying to become more mature. I think that's awesome, and I think you're right, you need to show people different sides of yourself. You don't want to be thought of as only one thing. I'd say to not censor yourself, but don't be afraid to show a more refined side of yourself (it just dawned on me we do have italics, I have been so sick of typing in caps to stress words!! LOL) And I mean, I say listen to your heart, when your heart is telling you something it is always for a reason.