Okay I want in on this one!
So this "dirty" habit I can relate to in few aspects of my life, especially when I was younger, different computer games, sports, etc.. To day I don't have this habit as much, BUT however I can fall into it on YouTube. Youtube is tho a great place IMO to get rid of having this mindset and i'll tell you my thoughts on it and how I combat this.
What has really helped me along my journey on YouTube is to know that uploading videos is like making a snowball. It's really small in the beginning, nobody sees it. But if you've been pushing the snowball regularly soon enough people start to notice, its visible!
What i'm trying to say here, is that nobody is going to watch your videos in the beginning, except maybe a few...

But whats cool about youtube is that the videos you create THEY STAY THERE FOR PEOPLE TO COME BACK AND WATCH WHEN EVER. The videos live, say that you've been doing videos on a regular basis for 5 years (lets say 2021), people can go back to your first videos that you create TO DAY (2016) and watch them and be like, nice, this video helped me, made me laugh, or whatever you're doing.
SO bottom line, if you're making fun videos that are interesting or specially if you're sharing knowledge IMO, you're videos will live, THEY BUILD ON EACH OTHER.
So just keep making those videos, know that we all suck in the beginning, but if you keep at it, and keep learning, your snowball will be HUGE one day
I haven't been making videos for a long time, still when I look back at my first I'm like "whaat... why did I do it like this?" I KNOW WHY, because I DID NOT KNOW ANY BETTER YET, with time comes better skill set!
Anyways, I hope this makes any sense haha

It does for me at least, did it make any sense for you?
I'm out, hugs to all my brothers and sisters,
Eaglewolf Magic!